Monday, October 5, 2009

Me, me, me

So lately I have been worried about many things. My jobs, my children, my sanity, and life in general. I came to a very interesting conclusion; I need to stop worrying. The things I need to concentrate on our me. I never worry about me. Now I know that sounds selfish and let me explain. I am not only going to worry about myself, but I am only going to worry about the things I can control that deal with myself. For instance, I am going to worry about my new husband. This next year is a learning year. Learning about each other, pros and cons, and learning to love each other deeper. That is important, especially since this summer coming up I would like to get pregnant. I think it is important for me to know my husband before I add a new life to the mix.

Also, I am going to worry about mixing my family. It is already working out pretty well. I still get frustrated, but mainly my frustration comes from an outside source. So, I need to relish the fact that my girls get along and my husband loves my daughter very much. And of course, she loves him. In fact today on the way to school, she told me that we didn't have a Daddy but now we do and he loves us. I couldn't of said it better. She is so right. So I am going to concentrate on me. Since I have come to that conclusion I have felt better. Work will still be stressful and so will the outside influence but I can deal with it as long as my core it strong. And that is what I am doing, making my core strong. Sometimes we get so wrapped up in fixing the outer side of the world that we forget the strongest part of our world, the center. So that is what I am doing. I know I will slip and fall, I constantly worry about things I can't fix but I am going to try.

School is still crazy and working two jobs is hard but I know that with love, prayers, and blessings sent this way things will be better. Soccer season is almost over and that will help. Only four more weeks. And once I get my gradebook working at school that will make things better too, but again that is out of my control. I hope this post finds you well and I miss you. Christmas break here I come, soon. :-)


  1. :)

    good for you!

    i struggle with this too -- so much out there to worry about -- so little we can actually control.

    peace and light to you and yours.

  2. hey, if it helps you are not the only one and it sounds like you have a grasp on what needs to be done and realize that it isn't going to be easy.

    but honestly, do we ever really appreciate things that have just been handed to us?

    i love you and hope your week is going better,